chat roulette

I just used chat roulette for the first time. First off, it's late at night so of course I got the worst of the worst, but the abundance of genitalia on that sight is horrifying. For every actual person I found, there were about 5 penises. It got the point where I wanted to start berating each person on how ridiculous they were being. Instead of going into mom mode and scolding everyone, I just gave dirty looks and signed off. Yeah, I'm sure that taught them.

I just don't get it. It feels very invasive too. But that aside, I did get a sort of rush from doing it. It felt like I was going against everything my parents had ever taught me about talking to strangers and I can't say I wasn't intrigued. Of course there were creepers, and I really didn't stay on long enough to really figure out what the intrigue was, but it peaked my interest. If I have the guts, I might go back onto it. We'll see.

There was nothing for me to hide behind. I couldn't hide behind my words or my sarcasm. It was just me on screen feeling completely exposed. In addition to people's apparent enjoyment of cyber sex, I think one of the reasons why other body parts were so rampant was because it allows the face to be hidden. It's the ultimate judgment if a person "next"s you because of what your face looks like, not so much when it's another body part.

I wonder, is this really the step that we want to be taking? Do we want to permanently feel like we cannot hide even in the comfort of our own homes? Is there always going to be a webcam or a flip recording somewhere that we least expect it? Should we always act as though the camera is on?

I don't know the answers to these questions, but I think it's important to take a look and see what direction our world is heading in. And I guess we need to get on board, or just constantly wear a mask.