why am i crazy

i wish i knew why i did the things i do. some things come so easy and other things really don't. i have a lot of insecurities and that has stopped me from doing a lot of things ever since i was young. i find myself uncomfortable in a lot of situations and i really hate that because it has stopped me from putting myself out there, having fun, and starting relationships. now at 22 & 11/12 i'm trying not to hold myself back anymore. the whole self sabotage factor is really powerful, and is like a battle between good and evil every day. i want to know what's gonna flip the switch inside me and get things back on the track they should be.