Seen it all

Ive got ice in my veins, blood in my eyes, hate in my heart, nights filled with pain, days all the same. Ive seen all the blood sweat and tears, all the ignorance that'll never understand, and seen things that would change anyone's world. Im not the only victim, most people always have some underlying problem at least. But, when your days turn into just a question of what crap are you gonna have to take care of today, what effing test they're running to find cancer, what prescriptions to keep you sane are running low, what day this week might you fall asleep, when will everything be okay, you've got some serious issues and nothing helps to clear the pain. Im stuck in a house taking care of my sister until she can get out, hoping to something up there that will keep her mind from getting like mine, I lay on the floor at night resting instead of sleeping ear stuck to the floor to hear any commotion. I may not have seen it all, but I've seen enough. Where is this God they speak of? Is he busy with other things? Or is he just something to waste you're time on asking for things no one can deliver? Please someone riddle me that. If you believe, tell me why he's got me into this.